Miss you

okay... seriously i miss my brother and my cousins :( . Man its been a week and im like getting crazy in here ... its almost 4.30 am and i dont know what do to should i ....... read ..... watch tv.....eat ... sleep and even if i sleep whats there for me tomorrow ...nothing ... ( i mean as what to do not as wow i wanna die ). it's been a while since i felt like that .. lonely hehe .. it was okay with me to be alone for along time , but now it's hard and feels way different than it used to be. I have friends here and i really enjoy my time with them, but for some reason i dont want to hang out with them any more ........ i know there is something wrong with me hehe ....... i wish if i just flew to my HOme last week ... just to see my ..... well My Everything.